I know it’s temporary. Sort of. Once he’s trained up he’s still going to have these two/three month TDY bullshit. I am so very very tired of being alone though, it’s enough, I’ve had enough, I just want to have my husband around. I think. It’s not that I don’t want him back, I just feel like our relationship is a ghost of what it was or even supposed to be. It’s all very well working on us but what’s the point when he’s only here a few weeks and gone longer than he’s around.
I miss my husband. I miss being part of team awesome. I miss being part of a team at all.