Is going on with moo that she has made fuck all effort and keeps bailing out on me. I leave in 3 days. 3. I honestly don’t want to hear that she misses me or anything when I am back in AK cause this shit is fucking ridiculous. If she didn’t want to see me and things aren’t the same with us then fine, but don’t let on like you do and then bare fucking no effort to see me.
Am thoroughly fucked off.
Went through the things I left behind in the loft today. I was specifically looking for memory things, yes from ex mr chop, and even more specifically this letter that he randomly wrote for me while I was at work one day, which I was pretty sure I had torn up but no, I found it (along with some other little letters, christmas presents tags, a valentines card and the first ever note he had written to me on the back of an envelope). So, word for word, spelling for spelling (using * to protect any identities):
I know you like reading and keeping a diary so I thought I would give it a go and write something for you! ps. Please excuse the poor handwriting + spelling :).
Where do i start? Ok moving in. Since I moved in I have not been happier! It seems my life has been wierd. Im a oober happy person but nothing has allowed me to show it fully. Like my mates from back home know this but I just never felt like I was being myself. But then I met you! and even before getting to-gether I felt like I was changing in such a good way. And I thank you so so much for it (and I thank gum tree)
Now for prick I mean ***. I know that you both had a long relationship and I have no place in saying what happend because I have never had a long term relationship. But from when I moved in I had no problem until I started seeing that you were not happy. And that was pants because I knew that it was not my place to get involved.
At the time aswell I was going through a gash time with dan kicking the bucket and it was awsome for you to put your hectic stuff to the side for me. And again Im proper happy that you did that for me!
After the epic saterday I knew in my head that I wanted to be with you!
Now you know the reason why I was hesitant with the whole pug face not talking to me and shiz niz!
But then I realised I was being a tit and now I know that I was a dick. But at least you know why I was like that.
Now I get to talk about the hotel! Yes! Hotel. The hotel was the best thing I have ever done with someone and it was all because it was with you! The spa = awsome + Room = Awsome. Car ride there = awsome IT WAS AWSOME! fact. And Im glad that you had a good 21st and I got to be a part of it.
Now I think were up to the present day in *****’s thoughts!
I’m still having the funnest time of my life and its because Im with you! At the mo I know your still going through stuff with his royal prickness and if I seem distant at times its because I know you like to sort stuff out on your own and if I seem upset its because im angry at him because I feel like he is hurting you.
I love you with all my heart. Never forget that.
You feel down come to me and ill do the same to you
You want to jump around the house? ill jump with you.
**** you are definatly the sex!
ps, This is cheesy as fuck but I loved doin this”.
I think the last line is definitely my favourite. I love that I inspired an honest to god unasked for love letter