Sometimes I still feel like my heart is so broken I can’t stand it. I so want to be fixed by now. I so want to be a whole person again and I’m not. I think its because in the deepest part of me I still think it was such a mistake, I still think its not supposed to be like this. I try so hard to hide that part of me from myself, I can’t think about it, I can’t bear to say it out loud. But sometimes, when I feel like I am still so shattered, that feeling sort of creeps up on me and I can’t do anything but feel like I can’t breathe.
It will pass. It always does