AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH GOT TICKETS FOR BEACH BREAK IN JUUUUUNE!!
So fucking excited! Cliff diving, dry ski slope, go ape park. So going to get on it!! Am getting the coach but actually don’t mind cause it means travel is all sorted now and don’t have to worry about petrol etc nearer the time, just food and monies to take!
Ex mr chopper put this blog up that has totally messed with my head, mainly cause it has a picture of me on it from the day before he shattered my world which I didn’t even realise existed. And he’s gone from saying the being with me was shit to ‘its easy to have a good time with the right person….I feel like I gave up….wouldn’t even try to get back with her just for the fact she prob hates my guts’. Blah blah blah. I don’t know how many times I tried to extend friendship, I don’t know how many times I tried to get him to realise that actually I did understand he didn’t want to be in a relationship but he was never honest with me about it, he kept saying it was down to me and my faults when actually he should have stuck with his decision the first time around. Yeah he ‘spunked’ it. That didn’t mean I wouldn’t have forgiven him and tried to salvage something. To me we were always good mates and its the fact he threw that away over everything thats upset me the most.
I just wish he could see that and get over feeling like the bad guy. I let go of us a long long time ago. When he told me to stop, I did. He was the one who sent the drunk email and texts. But its like I got the blame for those as well as the end of the relationship when really it was down to him just not being bothered to actually put some effort in to something for a change.
Whatever. On with life, on with the good times, on with moving in with moo and back to bomo, on with beach break!!!