Why Am I Surprised?

So mr ex chopper couldn’t have cared less. I don’t know why I’m surprised. I sort of thought he at least still cared about me a little but I really understand now that even though I miss him as my friend, even though I still care that he’s ok, he just couldn’t give a flying shit about how I am. I tell him I have this health stuff, he doesn’t even ask if I’m ok. I tell him I’m leaving, nothing. I didn’t expect a massive reaction but I guess I thought if I still cared about him as a friend, he would feel the same. He called me his soulmate not that long ago and now instead of showing a little empathy he bugs me over more old house stuff. Yeah cya Kate, before you go can you worry over this old shit? Thanks.

I’m so disappointed in him and in myself for thinking he’s a good caring person. I forgot how selfish he actually is and I feel like I let myself down for not seeing that and for ever loving someone like that.

I’m done. I’m not even going to be sad about it. I’m just done.


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